Brethren, my son Ender is cute as a button. He’s had my heart ever since he got yanked
into the world. And he likes me too. He
always has big smiles for me. He gives
me really nice dry burps faster than anyone else. He likes our ceiling fan more than me, but I’m
no chopped liver, according to him.
Ender and I spend a lot of time together. His mom works part-time and I’m home for the
summer since I’m a school teacher; so there are five hours a day that I get to
play Mr. Mom. We really like our time together.
His nap is usually after we’re back from a long walk and
I’ve fed him, burped him, changed him, and worked him out with tummy time and a
stuffed bee he likes to abuse. It
usually happens in his room. I know from
experience the nap is going to be between 30 and 45 minutes.
This is my time. I
really like to cut loose right about now because I know the grind is going to
continue in just a bit so… I wash his
bottles and pacifiers, make him a pitcher of formula, wash his clothes
sometimes, start to prepare lunch, put a bottle in the warmer, tiptoe
everywhere, text my wife things about the morning since she tracks his meals
and diaper changes, and sometimes get ready to go on an errand with him. Sometime during this ‘me time,’ he starts
crying.
He wakes up alone and scared so he cries out. You know if he really thought about what I
was doing he probably would think I was taking ‘me time.’ He probably thinks I’m watching soap operas,
doing my nails, or weight lifting. ‘Dad is
probably reading some esoteric history tome.’ (I love personifying my son (I
know it’s not really personifying because he IS a person.).)
So I’ve noticed that my son doesn’t realize that when I’m
not with him I’m still taking care of him.
You know this, even when you’re at work you’re taking care of your kids,
aren’t you? Rent isn’t going to pay
itself, right? Sometimes the most
important things we do to take care of our children is stuff they can’t see us
doing.
Sometimes our heavenly father seems to be very far from
us. We are in the desert and he is
nowhere to be found. We are taking up
our crosses and following after him and he is forsaking us. We’re going through personal tragedies like
dead loved ones or divorce or unemployment and God has left us in our crib and
shut the door.
But God is the Father and even when he isn’t taking care of
you he IS taking care of you. He is
filling your life with providence even when he feels far away. He is making sure that all things work together
for the good of those who love him and are called according to his purpose.
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